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Thursday, September 25, 2003

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Sunday, September 21, 2003

THE ME SURVEY:
courtesy of JENLIEN!

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WHAT/WHEN/WHO/HOW


is my bday?
is my fav. color(s)?
is my fav. food?
is my fav. drink?
do i hang out with?
do i live?
is my favorite animal?
old am i?
am i from?

puahaha fill it out :]

ok, so, this year, i'm going to start my own new policy dealing with grades and test scores and stuff like that. I'M NOT TELLING ANYONE MY SCORE OR GRADE OR ANYTHING. so don't bother asking. you could tell me your score, i wouldn't care, but i'm still not telling you mine. thats the way i'm going to try to go this year. i don't like competing with my friends.

--mooched from eric.

IS IT JUST ME or is this true for other people; sometimes it seems like your closest friends are the worst and your other friends are the best? i mean people that you thought really cared about you, people that you knew would be there for you, and then suddenly its like they change and youre... ignored completely.

you know? you see your friends hanging out with another group and youre there with some other friends, lesser friends, but still friends. and... you try and say hi, whats up, but they totally ignore you. totally. i mean cold fucking shoulder ignore you.

and its at this time when you realize who your true friends are. you know? people who stick up for you, who stick by your side and theyre there for you.

--mooched from evaNnn

sigh. lately i've been having these hella weird dreams..ahaha friday night, i dreamed that i moved to..er..oregon? i think. for some reason, i saw a bunch of my old collins friends there O__O. haha welps the thing is, i felt hella happier there than i do at lynbrook now..iono..maybe it's time for a change? then..yesterday night..ahah -_-;; it was hecka weird..i forgot most of it..but there was person #1 and person #2..and i just felt like ignored by them. i thought that they were good friends of mine, but i guess that i'm not as important to them as they were to me.

junior year makes everything complicated.


Thursday, September 18, 2003

It seems like a sugar coat..everything seems to be okay on the outside, but it's a different story on the inside..

..i don't know how i'm supposed to be feeling. when did all these feelings of bb come flying back into my head? i suppose that i only have stress and junior year to blame

my mom was talking to my friend's mom, and my friend's mom said that my friend could not deal with stress. i'm sure that most of you got the gist of that. my mom thinks that i handle with stress very well. pffft that's a crock load of shiet.

i thought that i could deal with everything, but apparently i can't. instead of doing hw, i'm procrastinating, feeling guilty when i say 'yes i'm studying' to my parents. what am i doing, exactly? XANGA. clicking links and landing on random people's xangas for hours and hours. all that perfectly good time wasted. like tiff's profile says...it's just so..hard..to deal with everything. i know, i know..'life's not fair.' but if that's the case, then what's the point? why shouldn't we be able to enjoy ONE fucking thing in life that's actually good??? why do we bother putting things into one category, when there's always exceptions? human beings are all equal. the subjunctive form is conjured like this. the test was easy. you have a chance with him/her. in each and every case, there's always an exception: there may be the super-di-duper brainiac that seems to be destined as the next albert einstein; the girl next door that seems to be everything you're not: prettier, smarter, better; the one that you fall desperately in <3 with...but doesn't love you back.

we have fewer friends than we think, but more friends than we know.

the thing about promises? don't make them unless you're willing to keep them.

you can close your eyes to what you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to what you don't want to feel.

why can we never be in charge of our emotions?

reminiscing about meMz.....

'i always knew that looking back at my tears would make me laugh, but i never knew that looking back at my laughs would make me c r y..'

good memz. denise kai michelle yulee tiff monnie cynthee tiff kara; jessie evy me chrissy (last day of school, freshman year)


currently talking to: dean kevin chris

currently wearing: pjs

current thoughts: i shouldn't be writing in xanga right now     

current time: 12:39 AM     

COUNTDOWN :  2 days till monnie's bday

*ediT:

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while adults might just accept that, I know something's gotta change. And it's gonna change, just as soon as I become an adult and get some power of my own.

muahaha how convenient !

ahah moochin off of liver :D

  Crystal Children’s Choir Camp 2003 was interesting, to say the least. The first day, I had to admit, I was feeling pretty grumpy waking up at 8:30. After I arrived at union church, I got a chance to see all my wonderful Jingjing friends that I haven’t seen in a month J Catherine’s, Jessica’s, and my mom stood by the bus the longest because..they were talking. Soon after, the bus took off to our destination: Santa Cruz. After we arrived at Santa Cruz, we got a chance to unpack and find our dorms. Me and Jess, Yuning and Steph, and Steph Chiao and Catherine were by ourselves in the 'CG' dorm, first floor. There weren’t any teachers or anyone else, so I was thinking like 'you know what? If a serial killer comes in, then we're the first ones to be killed. (Yes, my friends looked at me strangely.) About 30 minutes later, everyone found out about youth after orientation. When Jiang lao shr was calling out the names of the people who got in, I remember that everyone was really, really quiet. Some of my friends got in, but some didn’t. Ah..=(  Anyway, me and Yuning were sort of excited, because it was our 'very first youth practice' Hm.. I don't really remember that much about the first day anymore, just that it was really tired walking around and around to the music center and dorms and back. I forgot how tiring it was last year, but it was still pretty fun. The practices and songs were much more interesting this year, as we had a new conductor: Rupert Lang.

Day two: We had the scavenger hunt! It was different than last year’s, considering how we put all of the items onto someone’s head, but we still used a sock to store the items. It was pretty interesting this year, because my group won! J Then for the rest of the day, I think that we had a lot of practices. I have to admit, I missed my private shower and my bed, but it wasn’t too bad at SC.

Day three: This day was probably the most interesting day out of the five that we spent at SC. Again, we had a lot of practices, but at this time, I think that everyone was starting to get used to it. During lunch, all of my friends went back to the dorms incredibly fast, for some strange reason, leaving just Andrea and I. We were sort of curious as to why everyone went back to the dorms, and so we decided to go and investigate. After we got back to CG, we realized that there was a lot of screaming and laughter coming from me and Jessica’s room. After I knocked on the door, someone flung it open, about 100 balloons were thrown in my direction, and I hear around sixteen voices shout  “SURPRISE!”  I was shocked, although I knew that they were planning something nifty for my birthday. I’d like to say thanks to everyone who helped blow up the balloons, and for making my birthday so much fun J Especially Jennifer Lien, who was the coordinator!! Then parent’s visiting started around 4, I think. I have to admit, it was nice seeing my parents again. Around 7, the dance/movie started. Suffice it to say that the dance was definitely the most..complicated one that I’ve ever attended.

Day four: Today was probably the most vocal work of all, because we had vocal training today! Before vocal training w/ the teachers, this acapella group came to lecture on singing, as well as to perform for us: they sounded incredibly good. After all of the rehearsals and dinner, it was time for the ‘sleepover’-meaning, we all got to stay up until 12:30 AM. I’d have to say that there were some serious problems going around, but everyone eventually talked through it. Since it was the last night, everyone took a lot of pictures- if anyone would care to see mine, ask me! Perris and I finally got to take our dorky picture! Special thanks to Jerry, who let us use his laptop :] How I missed my computer! Hm. Jessica and I decided to stay in our regular room to sleep in, since we didn’t feel like sleeping on the ground.

Day five: Today was the last day of music camp! As one recalls, me and Jessica’s room still had 100 balloons floating around from my birthday. We couldn’t figure out exactly how to pop the balloons without making each popped one sound like a gunshot, but we finally did. Actually, the only thing that we needed to do was to cut the part where the balloon was knotted together. After breakfast, there was a final rehearsal, and then we had our performance for the JingJing teachers who were present at camp. After the performance and lunch, it was time to finish packing and to board the bus. Our destination? The Santa Cruz Boardwalk! We spent about 2 ½ hours there, and Jessica, Catherine, Yuning, Stephanie, and I went on three rides. After Jessica and I paid money for the haunted house ride, I suddenly decided that it was a bad choice to go on. However, the lady operating the ride just told us to stay on the ride. I couldn’t really say how ‘scary’ the ride actually was, since we spent covered our eyes and spent the entire time screaming. Our last stop at the boardwalk was the beach, where we encountered the wonderful waves and seagulls. At 4, however, we were forced to go back to the buses, where everyone exchanged their final goodbyes with friends who lived farther away. An hour later, we returned to union church, where we picked up our belongings and met up with our parents.  And thus, my dear readers, concludes Crystal Camp 2003.

I have to say, I learned a lot from Rupert Lang and the staff of JingJing over camp. I feel grateful for the new friendships that I made, new knowledge that I acquired from vocal training, the tireless efforts of the JingJing staff that made this camp possible, and the wonderful exercise from walking to the music hall and back to the dorms. My second choir camp was a blast, and I hope that next year, my final year in Crystal, will be just as great. 

ahahahahah.

article written by: meeH

forced me to write the article: ALEX! hahahah jpjp. rofl i hope that this article isn't going to be totally horrible as compared to everyone else's =/

welps im outt payCEee

*wavES*

*ediT: lolol hellaaa weird almost no one from choir read this entry yet :D

anyhoosss more (old) picatures..lol :D hahha i need to take some new ones humm i think that i'll bring my cammie to school sometime

jereEmmyyy (upcomin pics of annual concERRTT) in tha car to the conceRt

 

christina hiding -_-;;

the peEhhzzz - 1 (steppeeh yuyupeeh jesspeeh cathypeeh allypeeh)

hahah tiffoh whitney stEPh

andREa..being her..usually attractive self :D

kelsey n jess

PERRISAMOO!!!! and stePHH ma :)

ahah me n keLSey

mr. brian fob

jess n jiang lao shr

ahah tammy n meeh last year at filoli garDEns :D lol were just frickin tireDdd

my dad

me n tammy

me n my dad. sniff i miss my (longer) hair

some pretty flowerrsss :]

hahah tammy n meeh under..a cherry blossom tree?

filoli

ahah us blowin kisses :D

lolol comparin my sis from last year to this year. last yeaR...

..my sister now (right) hahaha eh not a really good contrast cuz you cant see her highlights in this pic :P

ahhh too many picatures. roffffLLL.

anyways. today was pretty much an..okay day? except for bio -___________-;; ahha but yarr. during chamber, the salesdood that comes every year came. lolol its like stuff for xmas n shizz..PLEASE BUY SOMETHINGG FROM ME! :] ahah ima like bring it around school n stuff hummz and lunch toDAy..lol me tiff yulee iris were waiting for tiff's mom outside..and after her mom brought tiff's lunch, we had this totally random idea. hahha we decided to go to rainbow parK! ahahah won't say exactly whereee cuz we wanna keep that as our 'lil place' . hahha it was helllaa hott so we just sat in tha shade fer awhile. but then me n yulee got bored so then we decided to go on the seesaw hahhaah dangg haven't been on one of those since like....4th, 5th grade ^^ muahah yarrr us choir dorks :D ahah then tiff n iris came over and we just stayed on tha seesaw :D ahhh soo much fun hahah but no worries..we're still not leeting the frosh take over *pause* although they like..ARE. hahhha anyways so then we start walking back before the bell rings..lololol tiffy. "hey! i see EYE CANDY!" "ewWw...you mean ugly boy?" "HEY HES NOT UGLY!!" "IS TOO!" "IS NOT!" "IS TOO!" "IS NOT!" hahah it was like deja vu all over again lololl 'you know, this seems really familiar!" "eh thats problee cuz i dont like any of the people that you like. they're all really ugly." "HEYYYYYYYYY!!!!" "hahah well do you want competetion?" *pause* "no."

hahhahahaah awww i <3 yoo gurL :P

humm....chriS! hahah i still have no idea if yer takin us tomorrow :P lolol the only thing that i heard was 'i think that i'm putting ac in my car.' -_______-;;

aytee

*wavES*


Wednesday, September 17, 2003

currently talking to: kenny jason evonne  

currently wearing: cargos//angel shirt.

current thoughts: friends and life.    

current time: 4:36 PM    

COUNTDOWN :  3 days till monnie's bday

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO NALIA PENG and KAI CHOU!!!!!!!!

lol that was probably the highlight of my day today..during lunch, we sang happy birthday incredibly loud to kai n lina..ahhaah nd embarrased the heck outta them ahh still gotta do that for monnie kara and everyone else whos bdays coming up :]

sigH. chamber was a bitch today..isola kept on yelling at us (second sopranos) O___O. rawrr don't really like the songs that we're singing :-/ er..at least, not the gay little boy who's SICK..lol tina. yahh we sounded *cofF* so good :X anyways..went to the mfc meeting today w/ yulee n emy..lol it was interesting.

You may be feeling tension in regard to your internal dilemma over how much of yourself you wish to reveal to others. A certain part of you is asking you to bring more communication into your world, and to make stronger connections with those friends you see on a more casual basis. At the same time, however, the square between the Sun and the Moon is emphasizing the importance of inner secrets, and the need to keep certain things hidden from view.

You will have to put on your white gloves and be precautions today, Alice! The current vibrations will undoubtedly make you fragile and emotionally sensitive. In both your social and private life don't try to increase or accumulate anything but, on the contrary, get rid of anything that is weighing you down or slowing you up! Don't jump into initiatives that are big but rather try to get away a bit. Escape and see new horizons! The moment has come to get rid of your preconceived ideas.

You might find that the mood of this day is a bit too somber for your liking, dear Leo. Why is everyone so serious all of a sudden? Whether you figure out the answer to that question or not, just know that it is probably not something you did specifically. Emotions that have been building up are likely to express themselves now, much like a volcano bursting under the pressure of tons of molten lava.

hum. it's my horoscopes for tomorrow.

warninG*some ranting, so if you don't feel like reading this shiet, then get tha fuck outta here.

i thought that everything was better, but i guess that it's not. i feel like i've been drifting apart from my two 'best friends' even more so than last year...one of them cuz we don't really have any classes together and we don't seem to have anything to talk about..the other cuz of 'aheM'...well you all know who i'm talking about :X yeah..this week's just so fucked up. i hope that the rest of the year's gonna be ok -_________-;; whoever invented junior year can seriously go DIEEEEEeee. omfg everyone's like hella changed..sigh. even some of my soph0more friends..=/

an old pic of us frosh year. tiff monnie chris, tiff yulee cathy sally, evy me. dayam, we look hella happy in this pic, huh? 

Richard Marx- Right here Waiting.

oceans apart day after day
And i slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If i see you next to never
How can we say forever

Chorus: (Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you)

I took for granted, all the times
That i thought would last somehow

I hear the laughter, i taste the tears
But i can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Repeat chorus

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if i'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Repeat chorus


I've had this song stuck in my head for quite awhile now. It's so sad... I guess that it just makes me regret everything that i've ever done..i dono.

ahh..i remember when i first met you in..seventh grade. lol me and karen went to the prospect carnival..yah and we saw you n andrew there. aaha i remember, i asked karen 'who IS that guy???' lol -____-;; ahh the carnival itself was pretty interesting..hum. I just thought that you were like..incredibly nice. lolol omg..and the money that you spent on that white tiger -_-;; how much was that? 60 ? i think...:X aha you said 'if i knew earlier, then i would have given the tiger to you.' ahh..and around febuary..the 17 roses/carnations..ahhhh. and the koala for our one month. lol i still have it O_O thanks fer everythinggggg. hum. yeah just some memz im...remembering lol. i hope that you're doin mkAY right now :]

a bridge over troubled waters..

..but who is my bridge?  



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